Life Of No Ordinary Rose...

.....how music can be such an inspiration to people, and well myself also The right song allows me to get in a mood, or capture an idea to write about... Music can inspire poetry, a book, make you tell someone how much you love them, help you break up with someone, even help you cope with pain of any kind.... Its weird to think about but very true there IS a song for almost every situation you can think of or have been in.... Lost a loved one? There is a song about. Loving being single? There is a song about it. Going through every emotion in the book? Yep. You guessed it, there is a song about it... Someone somewhere has gone through what you have gone through and written about it reminding you that you are NOT alone.

...was what the present was then it wouldn't be a what if. So why do we dwell on the "what ifs"? What does "what if"do for us? NOTHING... Don't be afraid to be hurt again for thru pain we learn and grown thru the experience so let go promise you will feel better.... Sometimes as a woman we sit and dwell on what happened in our past with our other lovers. And for what? We cant change it. We cant adjust the past we can only move forward from it... Everything little thing he does bugs you or you think that everything is directed to you. Truth is sometimes it is but mostly its not. See if he is the one who hurt you or broke it off then its rare that his thoughts travel back to you unless he, himself is in denial and knows he should have never let you go. But even in that the reality is that he DID let you go so don't say "what if" say "whats next"... So like Jay-Z says, "I'm on to the next one...." Life is too short to be fi

Have you ever had a guy hit on you? Tell you how beautiful you are? Tell you how he wants to get to know you better? Then precedes to hit on your friend? How does that make you feel? Well it has happened to me more then once and it makes me feel a little low at some point.... Its like, "were you using me to get to them?" Cause if that's the case men just go for the one that you wanted in the first place. Men here is the dumb thing that you do. Don't try to put two friends against each other, don't try to hit on best friends, it makes you look desperate. I'm just saying be a man about it. Its rather disgusting honestly... And guess what? If the friendship is a true one it will last beyond your trifling self lol I just have never understood a man that hits on one girl then next week he is hitting on all her friends. Are you that desperate for attention? Pick ya jaw up off the floor, become a man, learn to accept rejection and start hitting on women who look inte

Soooo about a month ago I took a very important test that will determine the rest of my life.... Back in July I took the Praxis exam which is an exam that will certify me as a teacher in my content area which is middle school science.... I am getting closer and closer to achieving the goals that I have set for myself... I looked at my results and I passed!!!!! I know right?! Yay for me....I had to dance in my chair and do a fist pump Jersey Shore style in excitement.... Some of it was because I hadn't studied as much as I could have so I know that if I take the exam again I will do even better on the exam... Now I need to finish strong these next two semester and kick butt during student teaching so that I can become a great teacher and provide some positivity in to youth of my community... I just want to show these kids that there is something out there for them....

.....Why do we feel that being a woman is sooooo hard? I feel like being a woman is a blessing, being a woman to me is a GREAT.... As a woman we bring life into this world and sometimes it feels like we carry the weight of the world on our shoulders.... Women can be emotional and sensitive but that is just the way God made us so we should accept it and embrace it.... We as women have an important role on this Earth just like men so don't feel like one is better then the other just understand that we are equals, we are both important to the development of man kind.... Just a quick thought....

Ever feel unpretty? Always finding something wrong with you? "I wish I could tie you up in my shoes make you feel unpretty too, I was told I was beautiful but what does that mean to you?" EVERYONE has flaws it is up to you to accept them, love them, and know that they make you who you are... Media says skinny is sexy but there are skinny girls who want to be thicker, thicker girls who are wanting to loose weight etc...but the key is to be HEALTHY no matter what size you are... You can buy hair, make up, eye lashes, etc to help with appearance BUT at the end of the day you need to be ok with the way God made you because you have to take all that stuff of and when you look in the mirror it should be an image you instead of one that repulses you... Work on you from the inside and it will SHINE on the outside... How can you expect someone to love something you don't even love? "But the highest people up got the lowest self esteem, the prettiest people do the ugliest

....Directions to get to good love "you gonna make a left on Touching Blvd, when you see Kissing Street make a right keep straight and that will run you into Good Love..." Looking for love? There is so many rules, games, policies, guidelines, procedures, and directions when it comes to falling in love... I say keep it simple, don't over think it, follow your first mind when making a decision of the heart and that my dear will run you into good love... Falling in love is easy, falling out of love is the hard part... There shouldn't be all these procedures to fall for someone just fall and if you get hurt, get up, shake it off and learn from it.... They say falling in love is easy and that it is the staying in love is what counts the most, so if is worth it fight to stay in love.... I look at love and dating in a rather unconventional way...I choose not follow all the rules but to simply follow my heart whether I get hurt or not I have learned something from the situat

So I had a guy from my past be a little rude to me here recently and I ALMOST let it get to me until I realized that I was worth more then that.... This is something that everyone should understand.... It doesn't matter what they say to you but what matters is how you react to the situation.... Do not give any energy to it because it will only make it worse then what it needs to be... He tried to break me but didn't prevail and for me that was a victory.... I was able to take the negative that he was throwing my way into a positive This just goes back to treating people the way that you would like to be treated and that is what I try to do. Pretty much next time I see him out I will just pretend he does NOT exist....

Here is my 1st Place Regionals team.....go LSHS Tigers...

....Of My Demise In the event of my Demise When my heart can beat no more I hope I die for a principle or A Belief that I had Lived 4 I will die before my time Because I feel the shadow's depth So much I wanted 2 accomplish Before I reached my death I have come 2 grips with the possibility And wiped the last tear from my eyes I loved all who were positive In the event of my demise Tupac Shakur There is soooooo much that this poem says and just shows the type of lyricists that Tupac Shakur was, however that is besides the point the point of this blog is to talk about life surprise, surprise.... As the poem states I want to mean something in this life, I want to make a difference, I want to make sure that I lived with a purpose and for me that purpose is to help our youth, to provide inspiration and motivation.... I want and intend to live my life right, good morals, good judgement, and treating others how I want to be treated..... Good Vibes :)

I try my best not to let small and trivial things get to me BUT I am human and at my job I work with well paid, doctors, nurses and pharmacists.... NOW with that being said I live in a state that is VERY conservative and republican so they are not fans of Obama which is fine BUT here is where it annoys me.... FIRST off it is NOT appropriate to talk politics in the work place when you are unaware of what every one's beliefs are. People get emotional when they have these talks so is not in any one's best interest to start a debate and/or argument over something that has NOTHING to do with your job. Listen you do NOT have to like Obama but I DO and I see that he is trying....no I do not trust any politician but I think that he is trying.... The problem is unlike other presidents he tries to live a normal life with his family. His daughters are younger then any other children that have been in the White House in such a LONG time so what is SOOOOOOOOO wrong with them vacation

When I was little all I wanted to do was become a Pediatrician, went thru middle school and high school with the same idea that I would one day would be a doctor and take care of children.... When I got to college I still had hope then I shadowed a physical therapist and fell in love with that profession but I still wanted to work with children in rehabilitation setting.... Then I graduated and my grades were not where I wanted them to be to apply to a graduate school for a doctorate program so I felt like a freshmen in college not truly knowing what I wanted to do with my life upon graduating.... Suddenly I didn't know what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go.... It took me a year and a half to be able to FINALLY figure out what I wanted to do with my life, where I wanted to go next.... Coaching cheerleading help me make decision, it reiterated how much I love to teach children things and then I decided to mix my love of teaching and my love of science and decided to become a

Sooooooooooo what annoys me the most is when people blame others for their unhappiness... I have a friend who ever year their "friend" blames the mishaps of her birthday not going well on my friend, and let me tell you how much that "chaps my a*s..." lol I just don't like for others to place blame especially when people do not plan well... If you know the club is going to be packed and unless you have VIP then get there early but don't get upset when you cant get in.... I try my best not to place blame on others when things in my life do not go as I would like them to go. See I have control of life as do you so when things don't go as you may have planned them, that's when you roll with the punches and try to have fun with the chances BUT don't push your friends back up against a wall and hurt their feelings because your night is not going as planned. Did you do all you needed to do to make sure your plans went accordingly? And even when you plan

Of your heritage? Where you came from? I AM!!! I am PROUD to be a little mixed baby :) I am proud to have been raised by the black side of my family and I am proud to have been poor. I am proud that I had to struggle and learn to make my own way in life I am proud that I was homeless I am proud that I practically lived through every depressing moment of my life.... I hate when people who may or may not know any better try to belittle some one of a difference race or stereotype people because they are different from you. Yes it is frustrating to hear people say things like "I don't go to the ghetto" or "That's hood" or "All black people are great athletes" etc.... You have never been to the ghetto so how do you know what "ghetto" is? And why is it scary? My car has never been stolen, I've never been beat up, I don't do drugs or whatever else people think happens in the hood.... Bad things can happen anywhere so why stereotype one

This is my diary, this blog is my way to vent, my way to share my experiences with the world, my way to provide my take on life, my way to provide inspiration and motivation.... I use to think diaries we stupid but this is a non-conventional diary for me and it has helped me to control my emotions and to keep myself in check at times something that I had struggled with for years.... So this is officially my first diary post: I'm changing, growing older and wiser and trying my best to keep sane while living at home with my mom Things there get insane and sometimes I just want my piece so that I could keep my sanity in check.... I try my best to stay away and keep busy but there always seems to an argument somewhere at sometime that always begins to boil... No matter what I say to her nothing ever fixes it I can only hope that one day she sees where me and my brothers are coming from and hopefully she will then understand....

As I sit here watching shows like "Eve", "Half & Half",and "Girlfriends", I imagine and fantasize about what I want my life to be like.... I want to be just as successful as some of these women are on these shows, you know the house, the cars, the friends, etc... I want to go to a job that I love everyday and come home to a house that I call my own and decorated the way I want it to be... Its crazy how I use TV shows as inspiration and motivation that my dreams can and will come true. I truly enjoy shows that celebrate successful African Americans because it shows our youth that they can go after and have whatever they want in life if they work hard and I am all about uplifting our youth and helping them want more for themselves.... Guess we all find inspiration from somewhere even in the odd places... TV shows can provide style tips as well, want to know whats hot? Just look at TV they are usually wearing the newest trends.... The purpose this little

....So this week has been very different. I am use to working a lot but I have worked every night this week as well as working 3 shifts at the new job during the day and practice with two squads.... I truly love coaching cheer and working hard to achieve my goals it helps me to continue to believe that my dreams can and will come true.... Now don't think that I cant get lazy because it is VERY possible and it does happen but I try to stay on top of my game I just sometimes love my sleep especially when I am running low on it. So when I FINALLY have the opportunity to sleep I sleep a lot and it makes me miss out some things.... *shrugs* Life Happens So I have to keep going strong and doing as much as I can so that I can be all I can be as cliche as that sounds but it is the truth.... Sleep is for the week lol so I intend to keep pushing and sacrificing NOW so that later I will be living the good life hahahahaha :)

I know there are some women out there that swear they hate other women and that they have NO female friends... Well here is my take on it: Every woman needs a "girlfriend" a female friend who is there with them, some one they can bond with, some one who can provide a "ladies night" with.... Men and women can be friends but there is nothing like a sister to sister bond... I love the friends that I have, the talks we have, the ladies nights we have, the time that we just sit and give advice to each other, the time where console each other when times are bad and everything that falls in between that.... There are things that only a women can bring to a friendship that a man can not and vice versa... Sometimes I just need my girls.... And I enjoy the fact that my girlfriends have been in my life for so long and "No Homo" but I hope that we grow old with each other....lol

...Sometimes you just need a fresh beginning, its like a breath of fresh air, a way to clear our minds of the "garbage" that sometimes can over take it.... We take in a lot of things day in and day out some things we forget or are unable to filter out the things that we truly do not need in our lives or thoughts.... No matter what the situation is, if it needs a clean slate create one Just my quick tidbit for the day...