Life Of No Ordinary Rose...

Dreams, we all have them. Some of our dreams are way more vivid and real then we want them to be. I have been dreaming about my ex recently and I wish I would stop. I am sure that it is coming from old buried feelings that I once had but there probably wont be another "us" and IF it is it wont be for a LONG time I'm just saying.... Then there are the dreams that I do want to become reality. The dreams of my success, the dreams of me becoming what I have set out to be... I am a day dreamer which can be good and bad. Sometimes it takes away from em being able to focus on the more important things in fine so I have catch myself to snap out of it.... So every time I lay my head down to rest I hope that my gets all of its wondering out in my dreams so I can focus while I am awake.... What I am trying to say is that I want my fantasies, my hidden thoughts, my desires to catch my while I'm sleeping. There is too much I need to get done while I am awake...

Ok....here is the deal initially I was NOT a fan of Raheem Devaughn, I thought a few tracks were cool but never looked to far into his music. BUT let me tell you how wrong I was. I got the chance to see him in concert Oct 23rd along with Tank and baby when I tell you the man can out on a show....he puts it DOWN okay *in my ghetto voice* lol Seriously, he is not the type of guy that right off the bat I would say is a sex symbol but his show changed my min thoroughly.... Songs like, "B.O.B" "Microphone" "Customer" "Woman" "Mr. Right" " Mo' Better" " I Don't Care" "Bulletproof" and I could go on and on and easily timeless classics... He is like a modern day Marvin Gaye. He adores the woman in her entirety and appreciates everything from her curves to her drive for life.... Example: From "Woman" I appreciate your glow (Thank you) And when you get angry with us the way that you let us know (tha

Ok so I am going to give my opinion on whether or not men and women can JUST be friends....Here goes nothing It is POSSIBLE, however some of the best and most successful relationships blossom from friendships. When you hang around someone constantly and talk to them constantly you begin to grow feelings for that person.... And that's okay. But in most cases sexual tension between you all will arise... I have a male best friend but the way we got to that point was a LONG road lol we actually started out backwards we tried dated and then realized that we are better as friends.....Now that we got the tension out of the way now we can truly just be friends and now we can talk about everything Alot of the male-female friendships I know there is sexual tension unless one of the parties is homosexual.... Now don't take what I am saying the wrong way. I am in NO way saying that men and women can not be friends with out being intimate. People can control themselves and although the te

Ask anyone and they will tell you that communication is KEY to any successful relationship whether it is friendly, business, or personal.... If this is the case then why have we allowed technology to take over the most important way to communicate which is FACE TO FACE.... A text, call, email, BBM, instant message, skyping, tweeting, blogging, facebook status, DM or any other form of social networking tool can provide you with the true and raw emotion that you receive from a face to face conversation. Phone calls and skype is probably the closest you will get to a face to face conversation BUT text messages has even taken away from that... Now-a-days you have more and more people who are afraid to talk to you in person but not afraid to talk to you all day long in a chat room lol Mind boggling right? It is to me. I miss the days where I would just sit on the phone with my "boo" all night and falling asleep on him because we have been on the phone for so long OR Just being cu

HOT TOPIC ALERT!!!!! Women being the bread winner.....hhhhmmmm what do I think?! Well here goes nothing: I think it depends on the couple....If the man wants to stay home and take care of the kids why not let him? I mean seriously women always complain about men not being fathers to their children even when they are married to the man saying "he is always at work, he doesn't even know what his kids are in to." Well you try and be the bread winner and see how difficult of a job it may or may not be. I am old school, straight up traditional so I plan for who ever I marry to be prepared for me to be on maternity leave lol I'm just saying if that couple is ok with the roles being reversed then what is it to you? Does the way they run their household effect you? And if it does please tell me how so I can know lol If they are happy let them be happy...Its not my business to judge... That is all

....Ever just felt like crying? Yea... Well did you cry? No.... Why not? You should have.... Every now and again when life seems to be a bit much a good cry is a good thing... My mom gets so frustrated with me when I cry but like I told her crying helps me to release my anger. The way she releases her anger is in a much more aggressive manner and that is just not one of my mannerisms.... She sees it as a sign of weakness, BUT I see it as a sign of strength.... How many people are afraid to cry in front of others?! ALOT!!! I know right?! Why? Because they feel like someone is judging them or they feel vulnerable.... But see crying doesn't always mean you are letting your guard down sometimes those tears are building a wall. A fortress that will fan away any other pain that may come your way.... See there is two sides to every story so don't just assume because someone is crying that they must be weak because I tell you what: I am one of the strongest person out in this world. I

So I have been jamming to "Speechless" by Ciara and I must say this song is pretty amazing to me...See I listen to the words of songs and not just the beat... And if you have ever truly liked some one and you just felt like there just wasn't enough time in the day to spend with that person then you will like this song too. She says I just need an extra hour on the clock an extra month on the year, an extra holiday just to kiss you all over your face...I know that I have felt like that... Hey infatuation can be a b*tch when it wants to be lol.... What feels even better is when the feeling is mutual when that person feels EXACTLY how you feel... Now that WILL have you "Speechless".... "Im thankful for all the days that you had my back, coulda been anywhere but look where you at?"

...I dropped the ball in Sept and only posted 9 times so I am trying to make up for that... So tonight I am allowing my mind to wander in to all kind of places and letting those thought flow through my fingertips and on to this keyboard.... You ever just sit back and think about life... Ever think about the what ifs? Ever wonder why somethings just seem so hard to achieve? I'm a dreamer....my mind is always in the clouds...sometimes I have trouble focusing on one thing or another because I typically have so much on my mind so I try to get as much off my chest as possible...it can hard sometimes though, I wont lie lol Any who if there is anything that you would like to have me "rant" about just let me know.... Love ya...

Ever meet that one person who no matter what you can never truly stay mad at them?! Lol well I think I have met my match. For as long as I have known this person I have not been able to truly stay mad at them.... They say something that makes me laugh and helps me to calmly talk about whatever is bugging us instead of me flying off the handle and yelling for no reason.... Its crazy the many ways that people can effect you and your mannerisms... I'm not sure if this is a good or bad thing the way I am feeling but it is definitely got me feeling some kind of way. No one knows what the future holds for them but I am trying to just enjoy the moments in which I am given and I thank God for them all... You know the best part about not being able to stay mad at this person is that it is healthier for me....lol Like seriously...see it takes so much energy to be angry and being happy is like second nature so why not just embrace the happiness when it takes over... Don't fight it...Enjo

I asked my Twitter and Facebook friends the other day what they thought about cheaters and if they thought they could change. Here are some of the responses I received: Q:How many of you believe once a cheater always a cheater? Or can people change? A: *It depends on the person *Its a mentality...so people can change IF and WHEN they feel the need to *Once a cheater still a cheater now you are a smarter cheater *People can change if and when they want *I think people can change, just give that person a chance to prove him or herself Q:Men:If you cheat on one girls will you cheat on the next?! A: *Bullsh*t *That's not true *I say No! But I do think if you cheat on your girl once you'll do it again *I think it depends on the man and the woman....some women make a man want to cheat the same way some men make women cheat. A man can and will settle down when and if they ever find that woman to make them want to Q: Do you judge people by their past or provide them with a clean slate?

..."All I see are fireworks, every night its fireworks... you coulda been the one but it wasn't that serious their was smoke in the air before now its me clearing it that felt good, all and all I learned a lesson from it though you never see it coming you just get to see it go yeah, I shoulda looked up in the sky at first now I can see it in her eyes Fireworks!" When you are really into someone sometimes all you see is fireworks...all you see is the good and cant even fathom the bad but don't be mistaken even the successful relationships have bad moments but they fight and work hard to make that bad, good again... Relationships are hard work and you need to communicate freely with your significant other or it will fail every time... Fireworks are good...that means there is a spark between you all and its like a green light to proceed and see where the relationship can go.... And sometimes the fireworks blinds you to the other person's true feelings. So be careful

Shattered dreams can and will happen....but here is the deal: How much will you allow that to hold you back? How much will take before you take a stand? For me the concept of love has been something like a shattered dream. My upbringing was not the most conventional one and for that I have always longed for love and sometimes I looked in the wrong places... I never and still don't get the love that I desire from my family. I am what my friends call a hopeless romantic... BUT on the flip side I try not to just settle. I refuse to call every man I go on a date with my boyfriend. I am not dependent lol. I want who I call my boyfriend to be the one who gives me butterflies...the one who every time we kiss I get weak. The one who when I look into his eyes I can look past all his flaws.... And that is why I am single. Now how is this my shattered dream you say? Well, Love has yet to love me back the way that I would like for it too... So until further notice I am on a "Love Hiatus

....We never did it... Eh, not me cause I am glad that we did. In fact I learned from it.... What is it that I am talking about? Does it really matter? See everything in life is something you can learn and grow from. So why wish that it never happened? Then that would be one last thing that you got to experience and one less thing that you had the opportunity to grow from... I'm just saying...take life by the horns and enjoy it good and bad... Without the bad would we know what the good felt like? Without the bad would we cherish the good the same? Without the good would we know that some of the bad ain't so bad after all?! Think about it and get back to me... *Deuces*

....This is what I am currently experiencing... It is time for me to just realize what I didn't want to realize before and move on... I told yall this before my motto is "Life Happens" and it does so take what you can from it learn and keep pushing... As much as love as I have for him the feelings may not be mutual and until I can come first then there is NO need for me to be around Life is funny because the 3 men that I openly gave my heart to played me for a fool.....and when I say I was in love with them that's exactly what it was. However that love was NOT returned and each have apologized about it and we are on speaking terms but here is the deal: They are all in happy relationships and guess who is still "Single Sally"?! lol Yep! You guessed it.... ME!!! I'm the lonely old hag who cant get anyone to love me in return....pretty sad and no I am NOT embarrassed to share this with you all because its life and I am living it and learning from it... BUT

If you find someone that can find the best in you when everyone sees the worst in you then that is someone you need to keep around you... Nothing but positive vibes I promise God sees the best in us even when it feels like no one sees the good in us. here is ALWAYS someone looking at the best in you even if you don't see it. It does exist. Just have faith that as long as you are doing everything that you need to be doing that is "right" then everything else will just fall into place as it should.... When you feel like you have hit a brick wall and can not go any further, when you feel like nothing you do is right think about all the people who do look up to you, think about those who do see the best in you And lastly think about those who have faith in you.... Keep pushing :)

I have been away for a little while and I apologize for that... So here goes nothing... I have been going through a lot and now I need to get my thoughts out in my version of "Pen and Paper.." I looked up a past love on Facebook recently and I am not sure that was the best move for me. I thought I was over him, over it but I was SADLY mistaken... As soon as the door was open those feelings came rushing back like nothing had ever happened. And then I got slapped in the face with some news I'm not sure I wanted to hear because to be quite honest I got a little jealous and really had no reason to. Sad huh? And as I sit here and write you "Last Time" by Trey Songz comes on my play list and makes me think of this person....*chuckles inside* this whole situation is just a strange one but as I sit here and wonder if this 3rd encounter of us coming back into each others lives is a sign of something more I cant help but to think we are just meant to be friends. You see h