Life Of No Ordinary Rose...

....a new beginning starts at the beginning of a new year, so with a new year starting you have a chance to start fresh..... For some reason I feel like I am ending this year like I ended last year, and that is another love lost.... So on Friday while I attend the wedding of a friend of mine at the stroke of midnight I plan to start anew, I have to, I need to, it is not an option.... I know how cliche it is to say that with the new year to start new but it is much easier when you have a memorable starting point... There is so much that I plan to make changes to in 2011 inside and out. What are your plans for the new year?

*singing* ....."I'm talking square biz to ya baby square square biz..." It is sad to say that the "Ivory Queen of Soul" Teena Marie passed away at the age of 54 last night. They say she died in her sleep and the cause has not been confirmed. I am sure that most of you probably know her because of Rick James but she had a phenomenal voice.... It is always sad to see someone pass but instead of sulking just send prayers to their loved ones :) Sit back and enjoy the smooth sounds of Ms Teena Marie's voice =)

I just got finished watching the 2010 film Dear John for the first time and I was pretty much blown away by the story line.... If you have seen The Notebook and enjoyed it then you will love this story just the same. I am know I am late in watching this movie lol so don't judge me... The love story in this movie is one to be desired and the ending was not one that I expected... I have told you guys this before but I am very much so a hopeless romantic and stories like that make me believe in love.... HOWEVER.... That feeling placed into my life does not stick for very long... Ever have someone tell you that if you tend to keep attracting the same type of people into your life then it is something about you that you may need to find and change... Just a quick food for thought...

Soooo I turned 25 back in June and since then things have been rapidly changing for me... It feels like I turned 30 seriously lol All, ok well not all but MAJORITY of my friends are getting married, creating families, and moving on to bigger and better things and I am feeling like I need to step it up a notch or something, like I am lagging behind in this becoming and adult process.... Am I over analyzing the situation? Am I trying to grow up to fast? I just feel like there are certain points in your life where you feel like you should be at a certain point or should have certain things. I don't know if this is something that I picked up from the media and society but it just feels in grained in me.... *shrugs* All I can do is take everything day by day.... I am making moves towards bettering my future but I think my problem is that I am too eager to get to the future and not enjoying the "now" as much as I should.... One of my desires in life is to get married and to cre

Merry Christmas to you all.... This year has been one that has been VERY eventful but I have learned alot... Now I may not get any gifts for Christmas but none of that matters I am very blessed to have everything that I have in my life from material possessions to my family and friends.... Do not forget to send praises up to God for the birth of Jesus.... Because unless you forgot *singing* Jesus is the reason for the season yea, oh yes he is.... Be good to one another =)

..."Now you can wait your whole life wondering when it's gonna come or where it's been. You may have got your heart broken a few times in the past never last strong as it used to. Don't feel as good as it used to (before) and all the things you used to say, things you used to do, went right out the door. Oh no more, will you be the one that's what you tell everyone around you. But you know they've heard it all before, what more can you say when love won't let you, walk away and you can't help who you love. And you find yourself giving it away when you think you're in love..." -Keyshia Cole ~It is such a strange feeling when you are falling for someone but a good feeling none the less.... ~It is a different feeling when making someone else happy makes you feel good, you know someone other then friends or family ~Something about finding a significant other that makes people do things they have done before :) I hope that I get to that point...

One of my favorite rappers is Mr. Loso himself... I have told yall time and time again I listen to music for substance not for the new trend or a banging beat... A banging beat is just a plus when the rhymes are creative, well put together, and full of metaphors.... If you haven't heard anything from Loso you need too his versus are dope.... Now typically I would provide you with some examples but this time I want you to go listen on your own....

"He pressing me like button downs on a Friday night...." Ok yall, I have a confession...I believe that Ms Nicki Minaj is growing on me lol I always liked her versus as a featured artists on tracks but now her singles are growing on me too. I cant hate on her lyrically she spits some cool metaphors. I guess what initially turn me off from her was her mannerism and voice lol I didnt quite understand it but it all comes with the persona I assume. Low key I am looking foward to new things from her...

"I want your ugly, I want your disease. I want your everything As long as it’s free I want your love" Its funny how you begin to fall for someone.... and when things really begin to get deep between you all and sometimes it gets to a point to where they almost can do no wrong.... Thats what I like to call a bad romance... "Can I save you from you cause you know there's something missing....starting to feel like the wrong thing to do...." Jamie Foxx and Drake hit home with the track "Fall For Your Type" most people whether they want to admit it or not fall for the same type of people and then you end up in that bad romance again... I honestly have no advice on this topic because this is something that I am trying to work through myself... The new boo is different then those in the past very patient yet I am difficulty treating him different, the way he should be treated because of my past... We shall see what happens... *fingers crossed*

Have yall heard this man? J. Cole is DOPE....Just sayin' "Baby you summertime fine. I let you get on top i'll be the underline I'm trying to get beside you like the number 9 dime you fine as hell. I guess I met you for a reason but only time can tell but well...." Two of my favorite songs by him is "In the Morning" and "Light Please" "So I tried to show her about the world and about just who we really are and where we coming and how we still have to go really far. Like baby look at how we live broke on the boulevard but all she ever want me to do is unhook her bra...." If yall have not checked him out then you need too. I listen to music for substance and I get that from his lyrics. Oh and ladies he is easy on the eyes as well.... lol Hey I am just being honest...

*singing* "Last night I cried, tossed and turned, woke up with dry eyes, my mind is racing, feet are pacing Lord help me. Please tell me what have I gotten into...I'm on an emotional roller coaster...." Today was going well then I got a text that almost crushed me but I wont let it... I have been through way TOO much to allow what others "THINK" they know about me to effect me...I am not perfect but I try to do right by everyone but sometimes at the end of the day it does nothing for me. I still get rocks thrown at me. I have faith that God hasn't left my side but I do get weary and bogged down because I try to do right, to be positive, to be a good person and yet I still hurt. I love me, I love who I have become, and I love the struggle I went to get there. And although I wish I could change people I can not. You can not judge a book by its cover nor believe all of what you hear because "word of mouth" can get so jumbled and messed up its hardl

If you are a lover of Music like I am you need to check out my Blog Roll. There are some sites that keep you updated on music, the good, the bad and the ugly lol Also the site I write for is over there as well.... So if you love shoes and fashion check it out.... Music, Shoes, Fashion... What more could a girl ask for?! lol Check them out....

....the Season Is all your shopping done? Got all your gifts, food, decorations? I wish my family was more like that. I wish my family got together at Holidays :( I feel like my nieces and nephews are missing out on how great the holidays can be. At how close family can actually be.... I want to decorate the tree, bake cookies, cook dinner, open presents together...I wish my family was like that... Instead most of us just pick up the holiday hours and work instead.... When I have kids of my own I plan to do the EXACT opposite. And if I had the money I would do all of the above for my nieces and nephews, however I do what I can do for them... *shrugs* I can only hope that things will get better..... But on a much happier note I hope that you all have a WONDERFUL Christmas and a very Happy New Year!!

Sorry my faithful readers, I have not been updating like I should have and I apologize. This semester has been a rough one, but alas I have made it through and with VERY good grades might I add. :) Besides that Shoed-In is doing very well with that. I am truly enjoying writing for something so wonderful and on the "up and up". Love life: Hhhhmm lets just say, I have one now and I am happy so we shall see what happens with that lol Work is work ready to start my career but I must be patient.... I have one more graduate exam I need to take and I need to start getting all my paperwork ready to apply for Student-Teaching because that is due next month.... Hhhhhmmmm what else? OH!!! Cheer is going good as well. LSHS Varsity placed 3rd in there Division at State. Big shout out to that... Avila Cheer has had a successful Pancake Breakfast on Dec. 4th and a successful Auction this past Saturday December 11th... We have an upcoming performance on Wed. Dec 15th. Next step we will be c

....a good woman or a good man? By whose standards do we say someone is good or bad? Don't people usually look for different things in people to make them happy? Isn't everyone different? Someone today said that women need to look at themselves and what is considered to be a good woman before they start shouting about how they are a good woman.... But here is my dilemma. What about men? Do they NOT have to look at themselves before they call themselves a good man as well? A friend of mine said that it is much harder for men to find a good woman than it is for a woman to find a good man and I beg to differ. I think both are equal. Society today is much different for my generation then it had been in the past therefor making it hard for BOTH sexes to find "good" mates that they are compatible with. To me one is NOT greater than the other.